I can't focus on things unless i've a very strong interest in it. However, it used to be I was curious about many things so it would work out. For example, I took a break from schooling when I was 11-12 and I was able to master math, science, and coding. I'd read an entire book in one go, spend days on one math problem, Debug code for 5+ days.
But I essentially had no internet access, then I got the internet and came competitive gaming, seeking public reward came to be the norm for me, yahoo answers, then youtube, then multiple tabs in chrome... now i can't even watch videos longer than 2 minutes, i cant read comments longer than 2 sentences, i actually hate talking in full sentences.. instead just feel inclined to use acronyms: lol, wdu?, sus, ngl, g, cap, gl... I find myself trying to come up with funny comments for reddit all day (sad actually), obsessively updating news sites for no reason...I have 80+ tabs open any time, (all todo readings)
I struggle to code for day job.
Obviously social media is a big culprit, my question is something wrong with me in addition to that? I still can focus on things that I've innate interest in (got fascinated with video editing and taught myself after effects after obsessively learning from all resources)
I found writing physically on a notebook kinda helped me, also going on long drives 4+ hours and reading a book (one time i knew i was gonna go so found a book i could read and didn't wanna use mobile data, ended up reading half the book and came back home and read the rest... huge accomplishment for me to read the whole book)
on good sleep days im better
now that i think about it i always had this side to me, rewards didn't motivate me, punishment didn't matter. good grades, more money, reputation... led to some temporary motivation, only thing that motivated me was if it was intellectually interesting if not i knew i should do it but just couldn't bring inner me to accept the compromise.
so what do you do, or i should do?
I understand none of the comments are medical advice
There are stimulants (amphetamine) and non-stimulant medications, which your doctor can go into detail to decide which is right for you. It's also possible you may need to try a few different meds before something "clicks", so don't be surprised if you're taking Adderall one week and Vyvanse the next. You'll likely start with low dosage like 5mg, and work your way up to 30mg as needed (which usually means taking more pills until your next script ups the dose).
If you don't have insurance, expect to pay $200-400 for your first 90-minute session (1st session runs long), and anywhere from $20-100 for the prescriptions (generics can be pretty cheap). Should also expect to have a session at least once a month to every six weeks otherwise the doctor may not renew scripts. Some are fine with sessions every other month, but they need to have regular check-ups to cover their butts since they're dealing with controlled substances.
ADHD has high comorbidity, such as with depression and bi-polar disorder, so the psychiatrist may expect a more holistic approach including working with a therapist, but it's usually "optional". Your psychiatrist and therapist can also discuss your situation directly to improve your treatment plan.