For me work has been very stressful, though I'm better off than most people, the pandemic did not affect me very much but I find work very toxic. I'm a very young software engineer at 23 in a country where most engineers you will find are 26 and above I got my first full time developer job when I was 19 fresh out of high school.
Most people consider me as smart but I'm not given the opportunity to use my skills. In late 2019 I had decided to resign my current job because I found it too toxic, I had been diagnosed with bipolar and things had been very hard before I had decided to go and see a therapist who when immediately saw me referred me to a psychiatrist and I've been on medication since then.
My manager convinced me to stay and offered me a small increase in salary and promised me that my voice will be heard. He also convinced me to take a contract that involved completing an app that I had been working on. he made a lot of promises to me. As soon as I accepted his new offer and rejoined the company, he changed again, I'm still faced with the issues I used face previously and as someone with bipolar, I get stressed easily and the company does not make it any easy for me. Last week I just decided to send my manager a notification about my planned exit next year. He's trying to convince me to continue staying... So I'm just wondering why s would someone want you to stay in a company without giving you the opportunity for growth? For me it feels like they just want to use me to do the hard work and then "The right people will take the credit", considering I don't have a university degree.
Are other young engineers who are talented face similar issues in other companies? Despite my age, I've been working with computers longer than most people around me. So I do know a lot and can easily do any task. A lot of people are just usually concerned with how do I know what I know? Most of the time people don't listen to me and when things go wrong or something is very technical they always want me to be the one to do that but I get no credit. Maybe I'm the problem. Is there something about me that makes it hard to be acceptable to these people?
Consider making it your philosophy to do without any & all credit and doing "the good deeds in stealth". The win-win is that probably credit will easily flow towards over time in surprising ways you when the need is gone, and even if it doesn't, the need was overcome.
Consider the way your manager tried to keep you "at all costs" (salary & even promising much more than he could really deliver!) a huge credit in disguise.
"The superior leader [...] is a catalyst, and though things would not get done well if he weren't there, when they succeed he takes no credit. And because he takes no credit, credit never leaves him."
No, I'm not. I'm at the beginning of my career, and so far I have only worked for companies that collapse! For the past three years, I have not had a reliable/steady income. In my current company, we are already being told to begin looking for another place. Last year at a time like this, the former company ran out of money now this! I don't even want to work anymore. Financially stability allows you to focus more on your work.
Most people consider me as smart but I'm not given the opportunity to use my skills. In late 2019 I had decided to resign my current job because I found it too toxic, I had been diagnosed with bipolar and things had been very hard before I had decided to go and see a therapist who when immediately saw me referred me to a psychiatrist and I've been on medication since then.
My manager convinced me to stay and offered me a small increase in salary and promised me that my voice will be heard. He also convinced me to take a contract that involved completing an app that I had been working on. he made a lot of promises to me. As soon as I accepted his new offer and rejoined the company, he changed again, I'm still faced with the issues I used face previously and as someone with bipolar, I get stressed easily and the company does not make it any easy for me. Last week I just decided to send my manager a notification about my planned exit next year. He's trying to convince me to continue staying... So I'm just wondering why s would someone want you to stay in a company without giving you the opportunity for growth? For me it feels like they just want to use me to do the hard work and then "The right people will take the credit", considering I don't have a university degree.
Are other young engineers who are talented face similar issues in other companies? Despite my age, I've been working with computers longer than most people around me. So I do know a lot and can easily do any task. A lot of people are just usually concerned with how do I know what I know? Most of the time people don't listen to me and when things go wrong or something is very technical they always want me to be the one to do that but I get no credit. Maybe I'm the problem. Is there something about me that makes it hard to be acceptable to these people?